I've been waffling the last two years about my pony. You can see it clearly in most blog posts, sometimes as an underlying theme and sometimes as a big punch in the face.
I had a wonderful talk with a friend of mine who knows nothing about horses. In fact, she's only met my horse once and she's never seen me ride. But she knows ME. She's known me for 18 years. So, I feel like she may not be an expert on horses but she IS an expert on me.
What it came down to is that my pony is not the right pony for me. Here are the main points:
1. I want to do a variety of things with my horse. It's possible that Tessa could learn to do these things and be a trustworthy partner. This would take time, money and training. It's also not a given that we would be successful. It's an unknown.
2. I want a horse that isn't spooky. And please, please don't tell me that it's because she's an Arabian. I know that some Arabians are spookier than others. Tessa is my third Arab, but my first spooky, insecure Arab. I had hoped that with time and training this trait would calm down some, but either she needs a different rider or she's just always going to have more spook than most horses.
3. I want a horse that doesn't buck or kick out. Period. The end. It's one thing to have a horse buck once in a blue moon because of something like saddle fit, pain etc. It's another to spend every single ride having to work through the 'I don't wanna' phase. Again, this is something that could likely be resolved with training. I'm listing this more for what I want from the next horse.
It makes sense to sell the pony to someone who doesn't mind that she's not a solid citizen yet. There are lots of people who would be able to work through her quirks without any problems. She's a lovely horse who just wants you to spend time with her. She nickers when I come into the barn and will keep calling me until I come over to her stall and say hi. She's easy to catch, easy to load (except that one time with the teeny, tiny two horse after a trail ride), super easy to clip. There are lots of things that are good about her.
I'm going to talk to my trainers today. In the past they have tried to talk me out of it, but I think things are different this time. I'm not afraid of my pony. I'm not angry at my pony. I'm just realizing that even though I adore her, she doesn't have the temperament or skills I want right now. I don't have unlimited money or time, so I can't keep more than one horse.
Did I miss anything vital? Is there something I'm not considering in this decision?