I did find it interesting that on my last ride, I didn't worry at all about how much of the arena we were using. I just worked on getting her forward and maintaining my position. And sure enough, when I quit worrying about it we ended up down at the other end with no fussing at all.
Sunday, we got to follow two other horses down the driveway. I had already dismounted so I ended up just leading Tessa but she went down with no problem. She was a little pushy on the way back and was definitely on high alert, but didn't do anything naughty.
Tuesday was my jump lesson. I normally ride at eight, but got a text at six thirty asking if I could ride at seven. I live twenty minutes away from the barn. So I hopped in my car, zoomed out there, gave the pony a perfunctory brush and tacked up. I was the first one on my horse at seven o clock sharp. Go me! The great thing about having to go so quickly, was that I didn't have time to over think it. I just got on and off we went.
Our forward still sucks. Laura said she might put a ride on Tessa to try and figure out what I'm doing. But I know what the problem is. I just don't know how to fix it. The problem is that I'm afraid of 'forward'. I'm afraid of her running away. I'm afraid of big trots and galloping and speed. NONE of this is because my pony has EVER done anything that would cause this. It's all totally me. And it's mostly irrational since I think I've only had one horse actually run away with me and it was in an arena. But it's there. I'm not sure how to get rid of it. It's not that I don't want to do these things. I remember the feeling from when I was younger of galloping across a field, jumping ditches. I remember the power beneath me.
Rationally, I know that I am a good enough rider to stop my horse if she runs away. Hello one rein stop! I also know that I am a good enough rider to handle forward. So how do I get over this? Horses are sensitive enough to pick up on non verbal cues and my pony has drilled right into mine. I'm afraid of forward. Now that I've said it I'm hoping that the answer will come to me.
|Not us...but some day soon, I hope it is.|
Also, this summer we have plans to try to get out and do a 'grasshopper' course. You can just call me Mona Sterling EVENTER. We just won't mention the 'grasshopper' part to anyone who knows anything about horses. I'll simply point to pictures of the Olympics when my friends ask what kind of riding I do. "You know, like that...but a little smaller."
For those of who don't event, Grasshopper comes before Hopeful which comes before Beginner....Grasshopper is basically trotting around a field and trotting over logs 18 inches or less. Yes! I can totally get behind that. And...though I'm apprehensive about doing it I'm also excited.